Try as I might try
To give my heart the lie,
To move on and to survive,
My heart in yours has died
And ever there must lie,
Unless by love revived.
my dear, I truly fear
I’m not being quite sincere –
is a gift (for poets) from above.
I forget how you were gentle
when you hung upon my neck
as you strangled my self-pity
and left me a silent wreck –
what started out as witty
is waxing sentimental.
the fault, yes, every bit
is mine, I do admit:
my love is self-inflicted
yet still I can’t evict it.
forgive me for this mix
of sentimental tricks
and words but half meant;
allow me this old vent
for a mixed up head and heart
looking for where to start:
Try as I might try
To let by-gone be gone by,
Could I forget your eyes
And let by-gones be gone bys?
there was someone
sitting on the bench
on the hill where
you said that you
and I thought
that it might –
but it wasnʼt
The water’s flashing, the waves are lashing
The gulls are calling out to sea
The sun is glowing, the sails are blowing
But love, I’ll come again for thee
My love, I’ll come again for thee
The clouds are raining, the ropes are straining
The pitch black sky ignores my plea
The timber’s groaning, the wind is moaning
But love, I pledged to come for thee
My love, I pledged to come for thee
The bells are ringing, the children singing
A ship’s returning, proud and free
The air is sighing and flags are flying
My love, I’m coming back to thee
Oh love, I’m coming back to thee
If only I could read those looks and smiles
As well as printed letters black and white,
I‘d cease to ask if wishful heart beguiles,
Or senseless eyes did read your gist aright.
But now your written words less clearer seem
And leave me flound‘ring even more in doubt,
Like soldier pond‘ring dark and shrouded dream
Before the battle‘s din and roaring shout.
Uncertain dusk retreats before the dawn,
When deeds are done and faith no longer gropes
But sees. Or else the doomed lie down forlorn
Still far away from all their dreams and hopes.
—-No time to wonder, doubt or guess – my night
—-Is rapidly dissolving in your light.